i think dishawalla sounds betta than dishwalla
I wish I could beevery little thing you wanted
all the time
some times
Don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
rahhhh
2:26 PM
I KNEW I WAS PRETTY
HAHAHAHAHAHA
BUT CHECK OUT MY FRENSTER ONE.
I LOOK LIEK ASHTON KUTCHER.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA
THIS IS DARN AMUSING.
or mayb coz im v bored.
rahhhh
12:08 AM
Friday, July 27, 2007
brain juices
sumtimes. i juz feel numb.its like u've experienced so much drama mama unhappiness in ur life.
so much so.
tht u forget wad its like to b upset.
and the only thing u feel is complete numbness n nonchalence.
ok, mayb not complete numbness since i still am feeling the lil pricks of wads going on in my life.
but sumhow i cant bring myself to be upset.
im more of numb.
with questions of wads-all-this-about raging in my head relentlessly.
(to qi: im emo, seriously. and i know u r in love with tht dark mysterious side of me. hur hur)
i guess the fortune tellers right bout me wanting stability.
caue sumhow or other i seem to b living my life for tht.
i shld juz get a vespa.
uni life is gonna b interesting.
i cant seem to socialise for nuts.
mayb i can do it for cinnamon powdered doughnuts.
o lord why din i hav a twin.
mayb she cld share my inferiority complex.
so i wld only feel half of how im feeling.
and she would always be there.
like ALWAYS.
henyuan's loathing of self righteous ppl part is terribly funny.
and terribly 'i-do-it-too-but-i-dun-want-admit-cannot-ah-want-fight-isit'
im sorry if i push everyone away.
i swear im nice cheery n fun to b with at times.
its kinda like feeling inadequate to b loved.
like ure not unique enuff.
not special enuff.
blah blah.
i think i need a shrink.
or mayb i need daily injections of endorphins.
ok,
so ive spent like 1000 on shopping.
i guess i havta leave my cards at home.
i hope
i stand
i take it like a man
i try as hard as i can
am i not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
do i cry too much
am i too outspoken
dont i make u laugh
shld i try it harder
why do u see right thru me
why do u see
why do u see
why do u see right thru me
on a tryin to b happier note.
i think the image of myself ridin a vespa on the road is pretty amusing.
o windsurfin shld b funny too.
o ya.
n the magazines i bought frm taiwan are tons more entertaining than s'pore magazines.
theey hav such pretty clothes.........
hur.
o ya.
viking was fun. like really fun.
i love the itchy butterflies in ur tummy feeling.
makes me laugh.
rahhhh
9:12 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
4 in the morning
i hav the put-aside-money-for-my-diamond-ring-fund urge.alternatively i cld juz ask ppl VERY NICELY to contribute more to the make beryl happy fund.
anwyays im irritated. coz a happy laughable post i juz written got lost when the bitch of a comp decided to pms n hang.
so now im left with a semi blank screen.
all i can say is.
i hate it when objects decide ta b women.
basically. im too irritated to rethink wad i wrote in tht spur of ingenuity.
so.
im going to make it a boring make up post.
my comp whom i hav decided to name. Bitch. can now hang for all i care.
oky.
my post was bout buying two shirts for the guy in brunei.
a syndrome called "nver enough"
and my secret inner desires for my guy to b intellectual funkypie cum rocker dude based on the shirts i bot fr him.
pull n bear is having furthur reductions if anyone cares.
i totally, seriously hate it. when all i hav written wld most prob garner a few snorts of laughter frm ppl who actually understand or are involved in my current stagnating life. and its juz swiped off like tht. so im in no mood to b humourous now.
i shall juz grumble sulk pout.
n murmur the stories of fooktard.
to myself.
fook.
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
rahhhh
2:11 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Big Girls Dont Cry
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im darn excited.
i almost started packing alr.
hur.
so if anyone wants anythign frm t-a-i-w-a-n
juz sms me ya.
i miss my babies.
im in a i-love-fergie-mood-mixed with oldies mood.
which is definitely weird.
last week of work coming up.
meaning my source of income is gonna b greatly reduced.
not like i was earning alot anyways.
im sooo gonna miss my babies though.
cant really imagine going bac ta sch n studying like again.
sulks.
uni life is like so independent learning which im so not gonna love.
ok fine. im a sticky insecure lil brat.
if i sweat i think i will get stickier n more adhesive.
hur hur.
i wish life cld b all dandy with cotton candy clouds n money trees.
but then again i dun hav a lawyer husband.
so i cant shop at warehouse.
neither do i hav a husband who is well versed with dealing with girly issues.
so i cant dine at lovely cafes with flowers in my hand.
im not hinting.
if i were i wld hav started my post with sth like.
"HOW NICE IT WLD BE......"
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
